Yesterday evening, I was feeling so sad and miserable...kinda feeling sorry for myself I suppose I did a little crying etc. I read a lot in a book that I am currently studying (THE POWER OF INTENTION, by Wayne Dyer) and read the section about death and life, and the thought that there is no death of spirit, but we are ongoing, eternal etc. I tried to meditate for a couple of hours and did the so-ham meditation. It was a long evening. At nine, I went to bed and at two, I read some more in the book about this theme. Finally I went to sleep and I must share with you the wondrous event that transpired.

Bett came to me in a low key way. At the time I didn't even think of her as coming from somewhere else. I was lying down, and suddenly I realized that she was talking to me in a low voice. I couldn't understand her, and thought that she might think something was wrong with me as I couldn't move etc. I asked her to speak again (I am hard of hearing anyway, so maybe she wouldn't think that I was sick or something). So she said again, "It often takes theologians a long time to see." Suddenly, I realized that it was Bett come back to me and I reached out to touch her. I just wanted to hold her so much.

I reached out and did touch her...Oh how I wanted to hold her, but it was not to be. She kinda became imaterial at that moment, but had not left. I awakened and realized that Bett had come to me. And that she was still here, but in a transcended state. I then had the glorious thought that she was real to me in the way that she will always be real...in a spirit state far superior to that of finite form. And she and I were one in that wondrous state of wholeness that needs no form, no boundary for expression and ultimate reality. I have never been so thankful in all my life. I do see this as a life changing moment for me. Suddenly I knew (felt, embodied etc) what I had been thinking theoretically...reality is so much farther advanced than the little I can experience physically, or mentally. We are one...all of us one,and can experience this oneness in a way that far transcends our thoughts and sermons about "Oneness". That's about all I can say about it at this moment.

I am wondering what she meant by saying that "it often takes theologians a long time to see." I'm going to think of that for a few days. My first impression is that we live in a world with miracle, love etc. going on all around us, and we are blind to it, going on our little way, preaching about things second hand, keeping culture in control with our nice homilies, but never really getting beyond mostly empty words and religious trivia.

Anyhow, I wanted to capture the moment with you before going back to bed. What a gift to celebrate on my 52nd Wed Anniversary. I so wish for each of you this experience of oneness that we truly have with each other. Death is only a transition from form as we know it into the exciting newness that is always part of the divine source that calls all of us into a being that has no beginning and no end.

I love you, Paul